the human brain takes in eleven million bits
of information, but it is only aware of forty bits.
I wish I could have told my senses to focus
all their energy on taking every bit of information
from the way you breathe.
You’re gone now and instead of remembering
the way you spoke to me
or how you smelled the day you told me you loved me -
I remember that the grass was two inches taller than it should be
and there was a light mist making my hair stick out in three different directions.
Even my memory was against keeping you.
Even my brain knew it was better that I not remember."